...to be uncertain about; consider questionable or unlikely; hesitate to believe.
...to distrust.
...be apprehensive about.
...to be uncertain about something; be undecided in opinion or belief.
I initally started this blog with the whole air of mystery around me, none of you knew who I was, what I looked like, what I did for a living, where I live, nor who JEM was. I then decided to occasionally post pictures of me, let yous into my life on here- something which I think I am starting to majorly doubt. I have met some fab people through the blog, people who I talk to all the time on Twitter who I have no problems what so ever with telling them what I do for a living, where I live, telling them about scummy little boys who mess with my head etc. But do I want to post it on my blog???
However I am starting to become increasingly disheartened with my blog, I felt like this before Christmas, however I thought that this was due to the fact that Christmas is always a busy time for me, and that I was ready for the break from work. To be honest things aren't that well at work (think you can tell via my random tweets) and the last thing I want to do on a night after spending a day on the computer at work, is go home and write a blog post. I feel like my spark has gone- what is the point in me writing about my excitement for an upcoming Mac collection, or the latest item that Topshop has in- things which I want to write about, when everyone else has wrote about it. At the end of the day if I want to write about something, you know I will, however am I just writing for the sake of writing?
I hate seeing pictures of me on the blog, those close to me know how criticial I am of myself and I don't want to attract criticism from people who I don't know. Those last lot pictures of me on here, I can't even look at as all what I see is massive thunder thighs and I feel physically disgusted with myself. People ask if I will do FOTD posts- no way, I'd rather stick a fork in my eye than have to post close up pictures on my face. I'm organising a blogger meet up, and I'm nervous about meeting these other fab bloggers in case they take an instant dislike to me, what happens if they don't like Durham, what if they think its a waste of a day/night out. Those are my concerns.
I don't know- this is how I feel at the moment, I know this post doesn't really have any sense or logic to it as I'm keep contradicting myself. I have 2 posts scheduled to be posted within the next week and then I will post the final information up about the Blogger Meet Up, and then I think it may be time to have a prolonged break from "Who is She". I do love reading everyone's blogs, take inspiration from them, get new ideas for make up looks, ideas on how to wear a certain item of clothing. Although maybe change is good, and the blog is getting me out of my comfort zone?? Ahhh I really don't know. I just know that if I want to be criticised I know where to go- I don't need it on my blog or twitter.
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I do understand totally what thats like. You might find, that in a few months that spark will come up again..like when things in ur life get better and ur maybe happier with urself. I do a fashion blog too..kinda..dunno if uever been on it, but i hate pictures of myself too. I post them nontheless..after taking like 200 pictures i have about 3 that I can just about live with, because I am totally not fotogenic and the thighs issue...yep...got that too. Anyway, ur blog is good and it should be something you enjoy doin and not fell like you HAVE to to it! lots of love n hope u feel beta soon! ANNA
ReplyDeleteAwwww hugs to you chicken! If you feel the need to take a break then do, do what feels right for you! Dont you dare leave twitter though lol I still need some form of contact with!! xx
ReplyDeleteJust do it because you enjoy it. If not..it doesn't make sense to continue.
ReplyDeleteDo not care too much what other people say or don't say about you. We are here because we value your point of view in terms of quality of a product or your honest opinion about it.
It's always nice to know a bit more about the blogger we read but if you are not comfortable doing it then don't bother uploading a photo. Just stick to what you feel like doing. No pictures of you..fine! We are not here to judge you but to express ourselves as individuals and as a "beauty community" as well. Don't reed to much into it.
Just do what you feel like doing.
I'll be here for your next post anyway.
Much love..XX
Do what feels right & good. There is no sin in taking a break in order to find your original inspiration back (or a new one). If your 'real' lief demands more attention, give it that attention. Don't feel obliged or pressured, in the end you are foremost responsible to taking care of what you need first. And I am sure that in the end inspired posts are more fun for your readers too :-) I follow on Bloglovin', so I'll catch up anyhow the moment you're back in the game again :-)
ReplyDeleteI understand what your trying to say and it is frustrating. Blogging is meant to be fun and about sharing what you want to not about what is "in" at the moment. Do what you feel is right whether it is not blogging for a bit or just writing what you want to do. If people judge you for doing that then they arent a true follower/friend. No matter what you will always have true people with you. And the meet up in Durham is a great idea (I would come but I live too far away :( )
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Separated at birth you and me Ray - by about 25 yrs or so! Do what feels right but don't do what I did and get rid of my blog, twice, all that hard work, no photos saved no nothing. But this is about you and not me, so please don't worry so much about the meet up,or your blog, you are funny and entertaining and I always love what you read. As one gets older it all gets put into perspective - I don't stop worrying or having insecurities but they are infinately more transient, and I forget about them...or is that early dementia? Jan x Look after yourself, take a break, have a kitkat.
ReplyDeleteRay!! Don't get frustrated, do what ya want, if you want to take a break, then you do it. If the spark has gone, then its gone, sure it will come. (I think this is why my posts are just rambles at the mo!)
ReplyDeleteDon't worry too much about the meet up, i'm sooo nervous too but we will make it a good time and i think you have done a fantastic job on organising it all - you're fab!
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Awww...feel better :)
ReplyDeleteDid someone specifically say something to you in regards to your blog or photos ?
Don't give up on blogging XOXO
AAHHH! Don't leave! I can't believe I JUST discovered your blog! (I know, where have I been hiding, eh?). As you can see, there are TONS of people out there who want to see you smile. Take a break if you have to (but not for too long, lol!) and come back to it when you feel that you are upto it. Likewise with me, I haven't uploaded any face shots of myself on to my blog because I can't handle it and that's fine. Do what you need to, but keep your head up while you are doing it. xx.
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